Dad

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He has always been there

Sailor tongued superhero

pockets full of dirty jokes

Each step of his was four

to little scrambling feet

My progress tethered to a pinky

Wait, Daddy

Powder kegs of emotion

I didn’t understand

where it came from, then

Punching holes in walls

His motor always running

never out of gas

Wait, Daddy

An industry of creation, exploration

The salvation of artifacts

in careful order

Patient with the process

of printing out light

drawing it from the darkness

Wait, Daddy

A love sometimes clumsily expressed

Expectations line a deep well

A big engine needs

a lot of maintenance

to keep the valves clean

to avoid a sudden stall

Wait, Daddy

He has always been there

A library of wisdom

close enough to call

bound with devotion

braving the distance

traversing zones of inspiration 

Wait, Daddy

Ticking time bombs in the blood

I didn’t understand

the threat, then

Procedures can’t be panaceas 

A locomotive interrupted

screaming wheels suddenly halt

Wait, Daddy

Dad, wait


On May 7th my Dad had a series of strokes, accompanied by some kind of seizure, and had to be rushed to the hospital. He’s just entered a rehab facility, and is showing incredibly promising progress, but it’s been a stressful time for a good portion of my family, especially my Mother. I never know what to do with myself during these kinds of situations (where you can’t really do anything), so I just pray, send food, and write. Recently I’ve thrown myself back into the poetry pit I inhabited when I was in my late teens / early twenties, so here I share something I started working on in response to the above. I would really appreciate some feedback on the writing; anything you feel compelled to say, including negative things, would be welcome as comments. The photograph is from a couple of Christmases ago, out of a Graflex XL and on Kodak TriX.


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  1. Suzanne Enterkin-Grogan Avatar

    Hi Amy – I’m actually amazed that you’re able to create at all just now. I’m so impressed by this. It’s a strange experience to have, being a grown up ‘child’. You spend a lot of your life rushing to be an adult, galloping towards marriage, hurrying to be a mother, only to find that when your aged parent is ill, you feel more like a child than ever! It’s a dichotomy.Your poem is very moving, and resonates with me. That’s all I have. ❤️

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  2. Terry Smith Avatar

    I wish I was able to use words like you do! The thoughts and feeling behind the words are so touched my heart and actually made me cry (a good cry)! Beautiful poem and picture right from your heart! Continued prayers for you, your mom, Louise and all your family!❤️🙏

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  3. Sandra Klein Avatar

    So very wonderful. Powerful. Intimate. Gut wrenching.

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  4. John Ekder Avatar

    I wrote a comment under your Facebook post. I think you should continue writing and photography. For the time being do not drastically change your life ior your activities. Just breath. You need to just stay the course and see what happens. Be true to yourself. je

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  5. Bill Smith Avatar

    Amy,Powerful words, please don’t stop writing or creating photographs. Watching our parents slowly slip from this is a journey we’re all taking, you are not alone.

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  6. Jay Jorden Avatar

    Dear Amy – Your dad, mom … and you! … are among my favorite people ever. And it’s great that you have continued your dad’s love of photography as well as including writing in the mix. Follow your heart, and I’m sure that fabulous things will happen.I’m glad to hear he is improving. Stay strong and be safe. … Cheers, Jay

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  7. Diane Wehr Avatar

    Beautifully written!

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  8. Carlie Pearson Avatar

    I always love the combination of words and imagery especially when the emotion evoked is authentic like this is. I believe, as creative beings, we are all acutely cognitive, each in our own way, of the passage of time. You have poignantly expressed this. Brava, Amy!

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  9. Sue Avatar

    This is beautiful and true. Thank you for this gift, Amy

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